Remembering her makes my tears flow..that it wont stop

I miss her a lot

       Its been a year and a half already since we lost her. My precious and dearest Auntie, tonight as I look at her Facebook page which was made when she was still alive.
      Every time I miss her I look at that page and leave a comment. I also did that tonight, while typing every letters my tears keep flowing, my heartaches and my head spins. I really miss her so much. She's a good daughter, a great mother and admirable person. All of my cousins are close to her so am I. So it is really painful for me not to see her and wouldn't be able to hear her voice anymore. Just thinking about that makes me mourn over and over again.
     I admit I haven't moved on, no! I can't move on for me moving on and accepting she's not going to return anymore is a hell for me. I'm being selfish for confining her farewell. I just can't, not yet. Even for the last time I wanna see her and hug her even if it is inside a dream.

Please show me your smile again, and hug me tightly... Cause I regret it not, having the chance to hug you before you leave us. Maybe after that I would learn to move on.

I LOVE YOU, My Dearest Auntie.. Until we meet again

Hana